Unbearable Suffering: My Fight Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick jolts, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically start with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Rita Paul
Rita Paul

Aria Chen is a freelance photographer and digital artist with over 10 years of experience, specializing in creative visual storytelling.